Want to know what I am sick of? No, well I'm going to tell you anyways, that's just the sort of person I am.
I'm drained, completely drained. Because of 'he said, she said'. I mean what is truly the idea behind it? To force people into corners, hidden from social contact. Me, no, i'm not remotely interested. In fact, if I could, I would live among the stars, communicating only with the gold found within them, gold that could speak. And it wouldn't be 'he said, she said', we'd have evolutionary conversations about, perhaps earth and why it moves the way it does, we'd talk about how everytime people look at the stars, no matter where, they are the same, or maybe poverty and how we can change the world. Things that didnt have any relevance but are so important.
Ask yourself how often you have spoken about something that truly makes you think twice, something that you have to put a tiny bit of your heart into? This is what i'd like.
I would have no worries about gossip and if what I am doing is 'okay' in the eyes of the people around me.
I have 5 cares in this world, genuinely:
- my family
- the triangle/our crew
- music
- 2012
- finishing school
The rest, is simply that, the rest.
I'm not changing, especially not for you, you can learn to deal with it.
hey baby cakes. i hope you're okay- is this about what we were talking about the other day? triangle/crew forever. this weekend we will hang and chat and let everything out. it will be perfect. love you. ps the rain is so so soothing. i hope you're enjoying it as much as i am. miss you
ReplyDeletethank god you contacted me, i need some reality, hahahaha. yes it is, just like not allowed to have any friends, woo. please please let us hang this weekend.
ReplyDeletetriangle/creww rox so badly, i even mentioned it above!
rain is so relaxing, i just went for a nighttime ride, was so beautiful.
yay you found this! i kept checking back to it to see if you had! i also dedicated a whole blog post to you ;-)
ReplyDeletetryyyy not to worry about it, you are so much better than that. you have gr8'er times ahead of you, this year will rush by, i promise.
it is so gr8 with an 8.
oh really! you should have invited me/told me. i think i might go for a ride. i am finding it impossible to do maths study at night (tonight and last night, ugh)
ps phone rolls over in 2 days. YAY. we shall resume communication, thank god
yay, you responded, ii also have been checking.
ReplyDeletei like to be alone, its great, but at school, im just out of place, wew! haha.
2012, cannot wait, literally its what i think about to get me through the days.
we (dan, laura and i) and it was so funny. good good times.
I CANNNOT WAITT! genuinely so exciteed..
p.s. how was englisssh?
<3
i feel your pain, exactly what happened to me every day. weow.
ReplyDeleteit's very surprising how quick the year goes, just focus on schoolwork and then you will feel even more rewarded at the end :) it will be perfect, you will be doing something you want to do and it will be the year of the kickers! yay!
goood times
i am also genuinely so so so so excited, and what shall we do this weekend? ps do you want to email or skype or email instead? would be slightly more convenient.
english was actually okay, listening to my voice over and over worked surprisingly well (i listened to it while i slept) and it's SUCH a good feeling to have 2/3 english exams over!
email me, ciarntalkstofriends@hotmail.com ;)
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