You There

I feel myself becoming trapped in time, in the fragments of my own imagination. I feel though, as if I am in many places at once. My world is spread out, across countries and seas. My love is not felt by only those whom I see. But, it is in the hearts of all those I seek to know. Those who I cannot fully understand life without. I'm living in a circle of my own life, I can feel myself and when I do it is easy to understand why, why I am happy and why life is so rewarding at the moment. I have this life, this time and all the happiness in the world to look forward to. I'm going to start living my life. I'm going to travel, to see hidden places and climb unforgiving mountains. I am going to be happy, not that I am not happy now. Because I am. But, this is all I think about. This future I have for myself.

This love I have, for all those who I care for, here and far far away, it will not die.
Love never fades does it, its the truth. We just don't know it yet.

Three Days Grace

On Monday, it was my 17th birthday and for the day, we (Anna Leary, Kate Leary and myself) chose to make our way to Sydney via train in order to be there in time for Big Day Out. We caught the train from the well-known Kendall station and hopped aboard to friends such as Taylor, Nikola, Anna Mac, Anthea, Claud, Steph, Lachlan and Jimmy, which was lovely. We spent the trip sitting opposite Nikola and Taylor and played such fun travelling games as charades and prejudice. The train trip was really fun and filled with many laughs, actually a good way to spend your birthday. We arrived at Sydney station, to about 50 degree heat, and I was greeted by Mim and Nathan, it was so lovely to see Mim, haven't seen her in quite some time. We were only able to have a quick chat, but it was still very lovely. We then were collected by Jess Leary, and she gave us the news that we had to go and see her friend Laura at a nearby hotel, mainly due to the fact that my suitcase was unable to be rolled and weighed roughly 50kgs, this was not a high point in my day, we got to the hotel and we were out the front of her room, I said "man this is awkward, cause I have no idea who this person is", as per usual everyone laughed, the door was opened and the three girls turned around and yelled "Happy Birthday!"- being the idiot I am, I was like thanks guys, thinking they were just saying it again, I stood there, not comprehending what was actually going on, until I saw ball

oons on the floor. The girls had shouted me a night in a hotel for my birthday, it was so amazingly exciting. We had the best night, we went swimming and played music and danced, went to dinner, the girls got drunk and I loved it, we went to an Asian games arcade and took some wonderful photos in a photobooth, then came back and recorded some funny videos and danced some more. It was genuinely the best birthday I have ever had, my love for the Leary girls is undying, truly the best people in the world.

The next day, which was Tuesday, we went to the city for some shopping, I went nuts and went on a massive shopping spree, though of course, my most favoured and best purchase was definitely my Macbook Pro, which I have named Pip, cause it is short and easy to say. I'm in complete and utter love it is so beautiful. We went to Anna's cousins house and had a swim and whatnot and then ventured back to Circular Quay for dinner

with some of the girls. Came home and had a chat, finally got to bed around 11.

The Wednesday, we woke rather early in order to get to Olympic Park, for Big Day Out. The group of girls that were from Pmac (Anna, Kate, Claud, Steph and myself) joined some of James Phillips (Anna's cousin) friends, and as a massive crew we caught the train to Olympic Park, this is where the heat, sweat and pure love for music once again erupted. Saw Little Red first up, they were so so much fun. Throughout the day saw Iggy, Crystal Castles, Gypsy and the Cat, Washington, Sia, Pnau, MIA, LCD Soundsystem, Angus and Julia Stone, and plenty of others that I cannot remember. But, good times were definitely had. By far, the funnest thing of the day was the Silent Disco with Anna and Kate, we seriously had the greatest times, we were in there for quite a flippin long time, so much fun! By the en

d of the night my legs ached and I was so very tired, getting to bed by 4am was a killer, but totally worth it.

Yesterday we caught the train home and Kate and I played some fun games of charades, Anna eventually joined, took some hilarious photos. Twas nice to be home, but I loved the last few days, so much love for Anna and Kate. Best people. Best times. Here are some edited shots, they are shitty, cause I have a shitty cam, but now I have my Mac, all funds will be going towards a good camera. :)

Far Too Often

Far too often, we would prefer to be somewhere else, surrounded by other people, speaking dfferent words and understanding different gestures. I don't want to come across as someone who doesn't appreciate what they have, because I do, extraordinary amounts. But, it seems that throughout time lately, people will only befriend you, or act intersted when it suits them. I wonder what happened to loyalty, and respecting the value of friendship? I don't know. But, I would love to find out.

Dogs

I started writing again tonight, best feeling.

The song is called Dogs, here is the link, check it out.
But, don't judge as it is a heaps bad copy and it sounds pretty crap.
You catch the drift though :)

p.s. try and think of what the dog is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyZpMeUnnsE

Answer Me

I keep asking myself whether or not I care too much, but I cannot seem to find an answer. I realised yesterday what it is all about, this whole, 'I always want to be around people' mind set that I have. It's because I have grown up in a family of 8, where always and forever I have been next to someone, I don't hear the sounds of silence, or ever feel lonely. This is why I feel as though I cannot let go of people, I don't want to be alone, but I am petrified of people seeing me, knowing what goes on inside my head.
I think I care too much, for those that I shouldn't. Someone answer me.
Do I care too much?

This is why we dropped Biology

I found this video today, so so great.

Underwater

Currently, in the top half of my country, there are floods. Horrible, detructive and life-ruining floods. Houses, offices, businesses, all underwater. It is not good. Then, on the other side of my country, there are flames and fires. Set, by stupid, inconsiderate people who have no heart or self-conscious. It really is terrible. But, all this destruction and damage that is sweeping across this country, makes us deepen our ties within our country. Most people, feel the heartache and desperation of these people and desire to help them. We want to work together as a country, as a race of people and unite under this disaster. This is the good that comes from it. I truly think it is a wonderful thing. These people, living through this, have been so brave and courageous, setting others lives before oneself, an act not many can undertake.

It makes us question the materialistic things we value so deeply and whether they are what truly matter. Do we really need the clothes and jewellery? For me, it has completely opened my eyes. In a situation like that I know for a fact that as I was swept with water it would not be the new dress I got, or my new shoes that I would clutch, it would be the hand of my Mum, or Dad, any family member or friend. I would not run back inside during a fire, for a mere necklace, only to find a loved one.

So, today as you or I sit and watch the news, question the value in the life you are living, don't measure it in money, only love. For it is only those who can truly find happiness in the smile of a friend or the touch of a family member, that will have hope in their lives again.

But. for now. We give them prayers and send them love. We care, we all care. :)

Here We Go Again

Having no one sucks, beyond description.

I Can't Wait

Ahhh, this time of the year is fantastic, it is a time of joyous festivites, such as my birthday, and Australia Day. Though, this year, I will be spending my Australia Day basking in the glorious sunshine, listening to the beautiful sounds of such bands as The Black Keys, Little Red, Iggy and the Stooges, Angus and Julia Stone and so so so many more beautiful bands. I will also get to pay Mim my darling a visit, which I am very excited for.

There is so much to look forward to, and things are happening at the moment, which don't usually happen to me. It is a truly beautiful thing.

I am happy. :)

Work, Save, Work, Save, Work anndddd Save some more

Currently I am working all of the time, as on the 24th day of this glorious month, I will be turning 17 and therefore I am intending to purchase one of these beautiful things:

So, at this point of time, if I am lacking in social skills, do not judge me, just know that it is completely due to the fact that I practically live at the Bonny View Store and most of my conversation involves words like "chiko" and "battered fish".

Ahhhhh, the life of a teenager.

06/01/2011

The 6th of January is a significant day in my life.
It is 2 days after the departure of my great friend Abby to the motherland.
It is my third day straight of work.
It is 6 days since my parents started disliking me.
It is 18 days til my birthday.
It is 20 days until BDO and Australia Day.
and for now that is about it.

For some unknown reason, at the moment I feel disconnected to the old times and the gang, it is really the worst. Listening to music that we listened to or just remembering the moments, it makes me want to go back to it so badly. I'm missing Mim and Abby and our old times.

I'm heaps excited for the new times to come, but the past is so influential in creating us.
Hopefully they come on backk.

Changing World's

My world is changing, for the better.

I once lived in this place, this world, that not many people knew about. A world where I had to find myself happiness and it was something that I often struggled to find.

Everything is changing in my world though.
My world has done a backflip.

Now, I live in this world, where happiness is easy to come by. I am always happy and have not shed a tear in a very long time. The people that I surround myself with have opened my eyes in so many ways. I don't know how or why, but this happiness has become a flame, that burns inside of me, it's not going out and I hope it doesn''t in the near future.
I'm writing again.

Lit,
by the simple smile,
of friends, fallen.
Fallen, like leaves,
from the sky.
Like a gift,
from God himself.
Mistaken?
Not I, not me.
This flame,
burns,
from the depths of the wik.
A happiness,
that only I can feel.
Keep burning,
my flame,
do not blow out,
don't let your light fade.
An everlasting light.
Cast by an everlasting flame.
Lit by their hearts.
My friends.